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Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?
–Acts 9:4 (NIV)–

Cut deep
The wound is open
Infection sets in
Will this be my last
Or does the cut get deeper
I can’t feel
I can’t feel
Walking with unopened eyes

Drowning is evidence
Drowning is evidence
Fading is slowly taking root

Hand of the dead laid in stone
Shape shift to convince
Drowning is evidence that fading is slowly taking root
Can’t feel for the wound inside
Taking root
Can’t feel for the wound inside

Lies that brought me here fade away
Misplaced this cure
Misplaced this heart

Can’t feel for the wound inside
Can’t feel for the wound inside

Hand of the dead
Hand of the dead

–Living Sacrifice, “Hand of the Dead”–

You’ll break

Merciless in full form
A sacrilege conceived in robed black
Impossible to rip apart from it
Listen close, hear it calling for you

It moves through you
There’s no turning back

Concentrate
Face to face with what turns
The unsettling fascination opaque
Sick beast spread poison
You are consumed

Run, hide, cry
Nothing will help you this time
Soon trapped by rot and vine
“Nowhere to go, you are mine”
A truth resonates as you fall in endless spiral

Incompetent in disbelief
Reality is frozen

Feel the jaws
Clench and now
Slowly you bend

–Loathe, “Gored”–

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Your cheatin’ heart will make you weep
You’ll cry and cry and try to sleep
But sleep won’t come the whole night through
Your cheatin’ heart will tell on you

When tears come down like falling rain
You’ll toss around and call my name
You’ll walk the floor the way I do
Your cheatin’ heart will tell on you

Your cheatin’ heart will pine someday
And crave the love you threw away
The time will come when you’ll be blue
Your cheatin’ heart will tell on you

–Hank Williams, “Your Cheatin’ Heart”–

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If a man know not how to rule his own house,
how shall he take care of the church of God?
–1 Timothy 3:5 (KJV)–

Marriage is honourable in all, and the bed undefiled:
but whoremongers and ADULTERERS GOD WILL JUDGE.
–Hebrews 13:4 (KJV)–

If thy right eye offend thee, PLUCK IT OUT, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be CAST INTO HELL.
–Matthew 5:29 (KJV)–

Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, NOR ADULTERERS, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, SHALL INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF GOD.
–1 Corinthians 6:9-10 (KJV)–

It is a well known fact that John Wesley’s wife, Mary Wesley, also deserted him for a similar reason. Wesley went off on extensive travels as an itinerant evangelist, leaving his wife at home. He also wrote ministry letters to Methodist women who asked him theological questions. Mary interpreted these ministry letters as love letters; and she became jealous. He continued to do this even though he saw it bothered his wife. A similar but different situation as Charles Stanley’s, but not the same. In Stanley’s case, it appears that he clearly prioritized his ministry above his marriage. In Wesley’s case, it appears that he simply had an antagonistic and jealous wife, who didn’t want to understand what he was trying to do. It also appears that he just had very little romantic sense, leaving her at home for long stretches instead of bringing along “a wife, as well as other apostles, and as the brethren of the Lord, and Cephas” (1 Corinthians 9:5). The spiritual and theological depth that Wesley’s ministry had was exponentially greater than Stanley’s ministry; and so its easier for me to give him a pass, as he clearly loved God in a very deep way. But when it came to romance, I think it would be right to say that Wesley was somewhat of a holy fool, who lacked the necessary sensitivity to have a healthy marriage: something he probably learned from watching his own parents. It also seems that Mary Wesley was a self-centered and unspiritual woman, who was prone to pull him into debates, which might explain why he didn’t take her on trips with him. She would have gotten him all worked up in the flesh, so he wouldn’t be able to read, pray, and seek God.

In Stanley’s case, its hard to see anything other than just easy believism, carnality, and ambition that blinded him from loving his wife enough. But I don’t intend to portray Wesley as completely blameless. He wasn’t. After dealing with an unsubmissive, insulting, and argumentative wife for about seven years, he eventually gave into a temptation of what we’d today call emotional adultery, writing the following words in a letter to a thirty three year old Methodist lady named Sarah Ryan in 1758: “The conversing with you, either by speaking or writing, is an unspeakable blessing to me.” This was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Mary deserted her husband after she found that letter in his coat pocket. It happens all the time these days by text on pastors’ not-so-smartphones. On the other hand, maybe it wasn’t emotional adultery at all. Seeing the context, Wesley as well as other Methodist leaders, had been counseling Ms. Ryan as she had been going through a process of “deliverance” for lack of a better word, and reorienting her life after coming from a very abusive background. Wesley was also twenty years older than Ms. Ryan, so its likely that his interactions with her were very brief, shallow, and only of a spiritual nature, intended to provide light to a very darkened mind. It would probably be wrong to say that he “knew” her in any close way. And if that’s the case, as it probably is, since Wesley remained celibate his whole life after Mary left him–that Mary was just a hothead, and was prone to overreact to his pastoral letters that were aimed at women with spiritual problems. Anna Stanley, on the other hand, had a reputation for being a kind woman that served the Lord enthusiastically; and yet, Charles neglected her for the sake of the ministry.

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Westminster Confession of Faith, 24.5-6. Adultery or fornication committed after a contract, being detected before marriage, giveth just occasion to the innocent party to dissolve that contract. In the case of adultery after marriage, it is lawful for the innocent party to sue out a divorce: and, after the divorce, to marry another, as if the offending party were dead…Although the corruption of man be such as is apt to study arguments unduly to put asunder those whom God hath joined together in marriage: yet, nothing but adultery, or such willful desertion as can no way be remedied by the church, or civil magistrate, is cause sufficient of dissolving the bond of marriage: wherein, a public and orderly course of proceeding is to be observed; and the persons concerned in it not left to their own wills, and discretion, in their own case (Matt. 1:18-20; 5:31-32; 19:6-9; Rom. 7:2-3; 1 Cor. 7:15; Deut. 24:1-4).

Gayle White, “Stanley’s Wife Halts Divorce Plans,” Christianity Today, April 29, 1996. Anna Stanley said: “Long ago…Charles, in effect, abandoned our marriage. He chose his priorities, and I have not been one of them.”

Dan Corner, The Gospel According to Charles Stanley (Evangelical Outreach, 1995).

Thomas R. Edgar, “Divorce and Remarriage for Adultery or Desertion,” Divorce and Remarriage: Four Christian Views (InterVarsity Press, 1990).

Dr. John R. Rice, Divorce: The Wreck of Marriage (Sword of the Lord, 1946).

David arose from off his bed, and walked upon the roof of the king’s house: and FROM THE ROOF HE SAW A WOMAN WASHING HERSELF; and the woman was very beautiful to look upon.
–2 Samuel 11:2 (KJV)–