Ideas for Book Projects – John Boruff

Bold-text ones stick out to Rebekah the most. She also ranked them on a scale from 1-10 interest level.

1. Calvin’s T.U.L.I.P. Plucked Apart: A Display of Biblical Arminianism10 Rebekah wants to work on this with me

2. Biblical Theology: An Arminian Pentecostal View – 9.7Clarke’s Christian Theology (1835), Wesleyana (1840), Charles Finney’s Lectures on Systematic Theology (2 vols), William G. T. Shedd’s Dogmatic Theology, P. C. Nelson’s Bible Doctrines (1948), Wayne Grudem’s Bible Doctrine (1999, has section on miraculous gifts; Nelson only talks about tongues), Donald Gee’s Concerning Spiritual Gifts, Jack Deere’s Surprised by the Voice of God, John Wimber’s Power Healing

3. The Moral Law of God – 9

4. A History of the Prophetic – 8.5

5. The Desert Fathers: Their Lives and Teachings – 8.4

6. Holiness: Progressive Sanctification in the Christian Life – 8.3

7. Hellfire and Brimstone: The Doctrine of Hell as Preached by the Puritans – 7.5

8. Pornography: The Vice of This Generation – 7.4 – see Neil Gallagher’s The Porno Plague

9. Contemplation: The Way to God – 7.3 –
Scaramelli, Hilton, the Cloud, Devine, Poulain, Teresa, Groeschel, Aumann

11. Miraculous Gifts – sequel to How to Experience God

12. use the Zondervan “Counterpoints Library” as a reference.

13. The Six Day Creation

14. Old School Evangelicalism – see The Spectrum of Evangelicalism; The Old Evangelicalism

15. Charismatic Worship

16. See Amazon Shopping List

17. Charles Finney and Leonard Ravenhill: Their Lives and Teachings – the 2012 DREAM

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LGBTs, Conversion Therapy, and the Bible – John and Rebekah Boruff

A response to the 20/20 documentary “A Boy Named Lucas.” 1 Corinthians 6:9-11. See also “Have You Admitted You’re Gay? The Bible Offers Hope!

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Review of Dr. Forward’s “Toxic Parents” – John Boruff

Toxic ParentsIn 1989, Dr. Susan Forward, a therapist and psychiatrist, published her case studies that she had accumulated after years of counseling adults who grew up with abusive parents. The title of the book was Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy and Reclaiming Your Life. It was a New York Times Bestseller on the subject of self-help; and from what I can see, has a very liberating and truth-telling character about it. From a Christian perspective, I would not recommend kids to read this, because it has some profanity that come out in the case studies. This is more appropriate for people in their 20s or 30s or older. She records the words of some very angry adults: men and women who feel like their childhoods as well as their adulthoods have been ruined by miserable, controlling parents. Profanity is an all too natural reaction for angry, unsaved people trying to blow off steam when reminiscing about the way they have been treated; and then having to come to terms with the fact that their parents really are to blame for their cruel behavior. There is a show on RLTV that comes on occasionally called Outlaw In-Laws and it touches on similar themes.

Much of the book seems to revolve around the theme of identifying inappropriate parental behavior, judging it, condemning it, and blaming parents for wrongs they have committed, yet continue to do without acknowledging. The path to emotional healing from such hurtful behavior, Forward says, is in identifying the wrongs of your parents and not blaming yourself for their wrongs. Abusive parents lack sensitivity and usually do not apologize for hurtful behavior; they also tend to blame their children for the hurtful things they say, so they feel justified in acting meanly to them.

Forward spends several chapters on subjects that would not apply to the masses, such as alcoholic parents (ch. 4), physically abusive parents (ch. 6), and sexually abusive parents (ch. 7). These are less common situations, but for those who might have been in those situations, she has answers for you too. My main concern here is on the subjects of controlling parents (ch. 3) and verbally abusive parents (ch. 5). I think that if there is a more popular type of toxic parent, then it is the psychologically abusive one that uses control, manipulation, and verbal abuse to keep even adult children under their thumb, and ultimately ruin their lives, and potentially break up their marriages. If we want to be good parents who do not provoke our children or adult children to wrath (Eph. 6:4), then I think it would be great to keep some important things about parenting in mind. And it can help to break any generational curses of bad parenting that we might have inherited from our parents and grandparents. Curses can’t be broken without repentance from sin and faith in the blood of Jesus; and Forward does a great job at identifying such parental sins.

In the Introduction, Forward shows the types of behaviors and character traits that you might find in an abusive parent:

1. Bad temper and relentless criticism.

2. Career idolatry.

3. Extreme physical punishment for small failings.

4. Intimidation and constant fear in children.

5. Jokes about child being ugly, stupid, or unwanted.

6. Manipulation with threats, guilt, or money.

7. No matter what, the child can never please them.

At one point Forward breaks and says, “Our parents plant mental and emotional seeds in us—seeds that grow as we do. In some families, these are seeds of love, respect, and independence. But in many others, they are seeds of fear, obligation, or guilt” (p. 5). It’s not hard to figure out which are seen as the good and bad parents in this quote. She takes an anti-spanking stance which I disagree with (Prov. 23:13-14), but she is doing so in the context of loose-cannon fathers beating their kids with belts for getting “Bs” on their report cards instead of “As.” She also admits that even good, healthy parents get angry at their kids and yell at them sometimes, but they are quick and sensitive enough to apologize to their kids when they go overboard. Again, the good parent is loving and sensitive enough to balance out nurture with admonition (Eph. 6:4), unlike the abusive parent who entirely neglects nurture, and only practices admonition in the most extreme and hateful ways. I would encourage the saints reading here to note that Martin Luther and Francis of Assisi had fathers like this; as did many Christian saints throughout church history…too many to name. Know that you are not alone: God is willing to adopt you as a Father! (Rom. 8:15). She nearly ends her Introduction with (p. 11):

You are not responsible for what was done to you as a defenseless child!
You are responsible for taking positive steps to do something about it now!

How sad it is that parents can do such a bad job at raising their kids, so that when they grow up, the only way they can move on with their lives, is to go get counseling from a therapist, who helps them to realize that their whole lives up until now, their parents have been mistreating them! They had known in their hearts something was wrong, but they fell under the illusion that this was how all parents are with their kids, and that they just needed to accept the negative behavior. Not anymore! Dr. Forward is forward enough to point out those wrongs and right them. But if parental wrongs are not identified as sinful, then no measures will be taken to avoid them or repent from them for future generations.

In chapter 3, which deals with controlling parents, and is titled, “Why Can’t They Let Me Live My Own Life?” she shows the specific motives that lie behind the actions of controllers. At the bottom of it, controlling parents feel inadequate about themselves and try to “feel needed” by their children. When the children become adults, the immaturity of this mentality comes to the surface, as they try to make their children feel insecure without them. No matter what they choose or think, it is made out to look like they are going to fail without their guidance. The children are meant to feel like morons who cannot think for themselves and need their parents’ wisdom all the time. Misery desires company: “I’m doing this because I’m so afraid of losing you that I’m willing to make you miserable” is the basic mentality of a controlling parent (p. 51). This can cause depression, schizophrenia, and even suicide!

Controlling parents will use an endless array of guilt-trips on their adult children. It is expected that you are to show up at Christmas,[1] and every other special occasion that Mother wants you to attend—regardless of your geographical location, and regardless of your personal commitments to your wife and kids. If you don’t comply, things can be said such as, “You’re killing your mother. She was up all night crying. I’m afraid she’s going to have a stroke” (p. 52). Since they have developed a lifelong pattern of disapproval, controllers often reject the fiancés or spouses of their adult children. This is usually the breaking point for the adult child, when he/she either realizes that something is seriously wrong with the parents; or when the realization comes that it causes strain on the marriage relationship, sometimes concluding in divorce.

Rather than being happy at seeing their adult child find a good spouse and be happy, they spite the child, and try to make him feel miserable and inadequate. They are parasitic and negative almost all the time; and very self-centered, only projecting their own unhappiness onto others, assuming that if they can’t be happy, then nobody deserves to be happy. This, of course, strikes at the very purpose of marriage: “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him” (Gen. 2:18). They are ashamed to admit that they are jealous of their children’s marriages, that they are so happy and things are turning out so well for them: at least they can try to make them unhappy a little bit through rude, controlling, and demeaning behavior, and “even the score” a little. The reality is, nobody is perfectly happy. Even in the best marriage relationships, husbands and wives still have to face financial, medical, and social struggles. Purposely trying to make anyone’s life worse is never justifiable. What is worse to think about, is when toxic parents are wasting their years acting like bratty eight year olds, their adult children are sitting there waiting for the day when they will grow up and provide the love, encouragement, support, respect, and guidance that they would expect out of any normal, healthy parent; but instead they get ripped off from this privilege, often waiting in vain for change.

One thing that Forward warns about at the close of chapter 3 is the error of “self-defeating rebellion” committed by adult children. It’s one thing to rebel against parents in order to avoid the influence of their sins on you, it’s quite another to overreact and rebel against their excesses in such a way that it would hinder your own happiness and independence. For example, if you have a controlling parent that is obsessed with your financial security, and he is obsessed with money all the time, and is greedy, and miserly, and snobbish—it would be a big mistake to overreact and intentionally live in total poverty just to spite the parent. That would have a lasting effect on your own personal happiness. That would be a self-defeating rebellion; or, a form of rebellion that actually ends up hurting you in the end, rather than helping you out.

In chapter 5, which deals with verbally abusive parents, and is titled, “The Bruises Are All On the Inside,” she shows in laymen’s terms that in the psychiatric community, the term “verbal abuse” generally means insult. The word insult can be defined as “speaking to or treating with disrespect or scornful abuse.” When parents insult their children, they are verbally abusing them; they are attacking them, wounding them, hurting their psyche, their sense of value, self-worth, and self-esteem. Often when these emotionally battered children grow up, they have difficulties working with managers in the workplace, because they overreact to corrections and interpret them as insults: this is called having an “authority problem”—being unable to tell the difference between a respectful and disrespectful use of authority (p. 109). In the minds of such victims, all authorities are disrespectful and insulting, and should be disrespected in return. But this is not reality. While Lord Acton’s dictum rings true, “Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely,” it is also true that there are some people in places of authority that know how to respect those under them; but this is usually due to the grace of God working in their lives, and them having suffered personally from other tyrants in their lives. Such men have been healed from their wounds; and long to show others how proper authority can be exercised.

Verbally abusive parents insult their children openly and indirectly. They might make brash out-in-the-open statements about the child being ugly, stupid, worthless, or unsuccessful in something. More often they might make indirect statements out of the corner of their mouths, in order that others in the family don’t recognize it as abuse—such as teasing, sarcasm, insulting nicknames, put-downs, or cracking cruel and belittling jokes at the child’s expense (which goes against Ephesians 5:4). This sounds a lot like Proverbs 26:18-19: “Like a maniac shooting flaming arrows of death, is the one who deceives his neighbor and says, ‘I was only joking!’” Forward says, “Positive humor is one of our most valuable tools for strengthening family bonds. But humor that belittles can be extremely damaging within the family” (p. 98).

If a father treated his son this way all the time growing up, wouldn’t it sound like a joke to him, if God expected him to “honor his father,” without hesitation? (Exodus 20:12). How can he do this? He can bear it patiently, get out of the house as quickly as possible, and pray for him; but he doesn’t have to pretend that his father has behaved honorably; nobody is saying that God wants you to honor men who have shown you nothing but disrespect and stirred up hate in your heart. God would expect you to remove yourself from them—“Blessed is the man that walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful” (Psalm 1:1)—but God would want you to say, “I forgive my dad, because he didn’t know what he was doing,” and try to move on with your life without his negative influence (Luke 23:34). Of course, the same thing applies to mothers and daughters.

Verbally abusive parents often feed off of a sense of personal failure and personal inadequacy. They often get it from their own parents’ ideas of perfectionism and competition; and as their children grow older, they also hold them to these unreasonably high standards, which are often impossible to measure up to, and the kids are then belittled for their constant failures to meet these standards, which are often vague and locked up in their parents’ minds. This is why these parents need to be forgiven, at least in the hearts of their victims: because they are acting foolishly: they literally don’t understand what it is they are doing wrong. They have been brainwashed to think perfectionistic and competitive, and to harshly judge and evaluate their children based on those so-called high ideals (which are often not based on the Bible and certainly not on the Gospel). I agree with Forward when she says:

People can forgive toxic parents, but they should do it at the conclusion—not at the beginning—of their emotional housecleaning. People need to get angry about what happened to them. They need to grieve over the fact that they never had the parental love they yearned for. They need to stop diminishing or discounting the damage that was done to them. Too often, “forgive and forget” means “pretend it didn’t happen” (p. 189).

Confronting toxic parents is the only road to personal independence in your life. If you want to forgive them, and get your anger out, then you need to frankly tell them what they did that hurt you, how it bothers you now, and that you want them to change—if not, oh well (p. 239).


[1] Under a heading that says, “’Tis the Season to Be Melancholy,” she says, “Manipulative parents have a field day on holidays, spreading guilt as if it were Christmas cheer. Holidays tend to intensify whatever family conflicts already exist” (p. 61). Merry Christmas! seems like a mockery to people who live in families like this. Wary Christmas! would seem more fitting.

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2 Laws – Dirt

Jeremiah Dirt, Optimus Rhyme, Epsilon, Roldan.

(OPTIMUS RHYME)
WHO CAN UNDERSTAND JEHOVAH GOD’S SOVEREIGN PLAN
NO ONE CAN, NOT EVEN UNIVERSE MAN
IT’S MORE COMPLICATED THAN TRYIN’ TO COUNT ALL THE SAND
IN THE LAND WITH YOUR BARE HANDS
IT’S ALSO HARD TO COMPREHEND, HOW HE WOULD SEND
HIS ONLY SON TO DIE
ON THE CROSS FOR OUR LIVES
HOW WE ARE SYMPATHIZED, IN HIS EYES
HE DIED ON THE CROSS, HE DIED FOR THE LOST
TO RELIEVE US FROM THE WORLDWIDE SPIRITUAL HOLOCAUST
THE COST WAS PAID, GOD FORGAVE THOSE WHO HE CHOSE TO SAVE
FROM THE BLAZE OF THE GRAVE
RESURRECTED FROM THE LIFE THAT HE PERFECTED
SHAMED, TOTALLY DEPRAVED, CHAINED SLAVE, RENEGADE
SOULS BEEN DECAYED, UNTAMED, FILLED WITH RAGE
WITH THE BLOOD OF THE BEAST RUNNIN’ THROUGH THE VEINS
TRYIN’ TO HIDE FROM THE LIGHT LIKE A MASQUERADE
LAYS IN THE SHADE ALL DAY
LIKE A CASTAWAY, TOOK THE WRONG PATHWAY
DISOBEYED AND BETRAYED
GOD THE MAKER, CREATOR, REPROBATE, PLAYER HATER FOLLOWIN’
TREACHEROUS WAYS THAT ARE FALLACIOUS DANGEROUS SINS
LIKE LUSTS FROM WITHIN
LEAVE YOU LIKE DUST BLOWIN’ IN THE GUST WIND
YOU MUST WIN
THE BATTLE
BUT BEFORE YOU GET ON THE SADDLE
THE HOLY GHOST HAS TO GO THROUGH YOUR BONE MARROW
AND FREE YOU FROM THE PATH THAT’S NARROW
LIKE MOSES AND HIS STAFF DID TO PHARAOH
SHOOT THE ARROW AT THE DARK FORCES OF THE SHADOW
MINDS RATTLE, WHEN I COME WITH MY LYRICAL LASSO
THAT ENTACKLES THOSE WHO ARE SHACKLED BY SIN’S GRASP HOLD

(EPSILON)
TORN FLESH LIES, THE GROUND SATURATED IN THE BLOOD OF THE HATED
THE LOVE THAT WAS CONSTRUCTED SLOWLY FADED
HOLY DAVID, THE WICKED GIANTS, CLASHED OF THE TITANS
CHERRY MOON DRIPS AND SPLASHED THE FLOOD
MURDERED THE VIKINGS WITH LIGHTNING
BY THE MORTAL SON, HUMAN SYNAGOGUE
TIMES ARE HARD, TOO ‘CLICHE’
YET WE STILL DON’T SEE GOD
FAILURE TO SUBMIT, WEAK MINDS
CAVE IN, THE MEEK TO SEE BEYOND THE FALLEN WALLS OF CANAAN
LIFE’S ARCHERS KEEP THEIR AIMING,
THE BULLS EYE OF A HIGHER PERSPECTIVE

ARROWS FLAMIN’, PHARAOH’S UNPROTECTED
REVELATION OF AN UNTOLD SAGA
WISDOM HOLLERS TILL HER VOICE IS RESTRAINED
WHILE MAN CHASES A PAINTED DOLLAR
LOOSE COLLARS, AND SHORT LEASHES
TO INCREASE THE PROFITS OF MY DOGS
WHO SEEK GOD AND HIS FLEET
FIGHTIN’ THE BACK OF EARTH’S REWARDS
3 SWORDS AND 6 PLAGUES, THAT’S MY NURSE AID
THEY CURSE ME, AND IT HURT, NOW MY TALENT IS THE FIRST PLAGUE
THE FIRST SIGN OF SHADE, I’M RESTING
THE FIRST SIGN OF PAIN, I’M BLESSING
RIGHTEOUS SPEECH TEACH A LESSON
LOST DISCIPLES EMERGE FROM THE UNDERGROUND
UNLOCK THE SHACKLES OF THE BOUND
LOVE IS THE KEY, HIP-HOP’S THE SOUND
IT’S FOUND WITH LITERATURE, EXPERIENCING SCRIPTURE
THAT’S SENT FROM HEAVEN, LET MY VERSES VISIT YA
PARAGON, MAJESTIC, MYSTERIES…CAN YOU SOLVE IT?
4TH DIMENSION DESCENDANT, 6 CHAMBERS, SON, LET ME REVOLVE IT
WISDOM’S MYSTICALITY, DEMONS ASSIGNED TO BATTLE ME
THE GREATER THE OPPONENT, THE MORE IMPRESSIVE THE FLATTERY
EXCHANGE WORLDLY DESIRE FOR SANITY, OUR CALAMITY
READY FOR ANY EMOTION, URGING YOU TO CHALLENGE ME
I FERTILIZE THE ART WHILE YOUR IMAGE PROMOTES VANITY
FUMIGATE THE PLANET…THE LOCUST HAS LANDED

(DIRT)
THE LAW OF GOD CONVERTS THE SOUL
THE LAW OF DEVILS, PERVERTS THE WHOLE

(ROLDAN)
PROPHETIC LAST DAYS, HOLY ANCIENT SCROLLS REVEAL
THE END SIGNS
OF THE END TIMES OF THE RETURN OF YAHWEH
TOTAL DEPRAVED, ENSLAVED SOULS
BLINDLY RUNNING IN A DARK CAVE
HEADED FOR THE LORD’S DREADED RAGE
SONS OF PERDITION TRAINED LIKE GREEN BERETS
TO INVADE WITH SYNTHETIC SCRIPTURAL PHILOSOPHY THEY CONVEY
HUMANS INFESTED WITH DEMON PARASITES
LIKE ISRAELITES, WITH LEPROSY
SPREADING HERESY
TO ANNIHILATE CHRISTIANITY
SOLDIERS OF INIQUITY
IN AN ARMY DIVIDED INTO MANY EVIL INFANTRIES
BUT FAIL TO SEE, THEY WILL NEVER SMELL THE AROMA OF VICTORY
DESCENDANTS OF MECCA, CHOKIN’ ON THE DEVIL’S NECTAR
RELIGIOUS ASSAILANTS ON A MISSION
TO DESTROY AND PERSECUTE THE CHURCH

OF THE ONLY TRUE RESURRECTOR, CHRIST JESUS
5 % MOVEMENT BLASPHEMERS
LOUIS FARAKHAN, THE KORAN AND ISLAM THESIS
DISSECTING IGNORANT SOULS TO PIECES
LIKE PRO-CHOICE M.D’S DO FETUSES
TRUE GOD SEEKERS ARE NOT FROM THE PLANET VENUS
OR TITAN, CAMOUFLAGED PENTAGRAM MEDALLION
WORN BY ANTICHRIST, TABERNACLE, HYPNOTIZED
RECRUITED BATTALION. MIDDLE EAST ARABIAN
DELUSIONAL ALIEN, REPTILIAN FALSE PROPHET NUBIAN
ISLAMIC HEBREW CIVILIAN, CULT RELIGION IN REBELLION
WITH THE HOLY COUNCIL OF THE TRINITARIAN
7 HEADED LEVIATHAN, DRAGON EMERGIN’
FROM THE DEPTHS OF EVIL PRECEPTS
TO PROCLAIM MARY AS CO-REDEMPTRIX
POPAL INFALLIBLE HERETIC
DRASTIC ROMAN CATHOLIC TACTICS
TO EMPOWER A LETHAL IDOLATROUS CATHEDRAL
ONE WORLD RELIGION SEQUEL

CONSTITUTING A NEW LAW TO MAKE ANY OTHER BELIEF ILLEGAL
INJECTING DEADLY VIRUSES, DOCTRINES TO BRAINWASH PEOPLE
WITH EVIL CONTAMINATED NEEDLES
ALL YOU COUNTERFEIT ZION PERPETRATOR’S POSITIONS
WILL BE IN THE FETAL

PETRIFIED BY THE PROPHESIED
RETURN OF THE SON OF MAN’S DIVINE
AMBUSH, INFINITE PLAN WORLDWIDE, HOLY INVASION
DESTROYING THIS SODOM AND GOMORRAH CONTINUATION
WICKED CIVILIZATION
SPARING ONLY THE REMNANT CHRISTIAN POPULATION

(DIRT)
GOD MULTIPLIED THE 2 FISH THE LITTLE BOY BROUGHT TO THE MASTER
TO FEED THE HUNGRY MASSES
AND THE 5 LOAVES FROM THE BASKET
BUT STILL WE PASS IT
LOOKIN’ FOR OTHER THINGS TO SATISFY US
WHEN WE PICK BERRIES, WE LET THORNS STICK US
WHEN WE ARE DOWN, WE LET DEVILS KICK US
CREATED BY GOD, AND GIVEN TO MAN
BUT MAN FORFEITED IT TO SATAN
TEMPTING US TO ACTIVITIES THAT ARE FRUITLESS
THROWING SPEARS INTO THE RIB CAGE OF JESUS
THE DECEPTION’S OBVIOUS
BUT SINCE THE EGYPTIANS SMASHED WOOD TO PAPYRUS
WE BEEN LETTIN’ COBRAS SLAP US
AND AS THE SECOND LAW FIGHTS TO ENTRAP US
WE FREEZE IN PARALYSIS
IS THE WALLS CLOSING IN ON US?
IS THAT AN ANGEL AT THE RADIUS?
I THINK HE’S COMING OVER TO US
PUTTING COLD HANDS ON OUR NECKS AND CHOKING US
WHAT HAVE WE GOT OURSELVES INTO?

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Full Color – P.O.D.

I cry why oh why did my mommy have to die?
Too many questions, no answers confuses my mind
Like what did I do, what did she do, who’s to blame
No one understands what I’m going through
So how can I trust what I can’t touch and can’t see
Believe in love and she’s in front of me
Silence in your eyes, my heart so cold
No time for goodbyes, then you leave me alone

So what do I do, accept it and carry on?
Or release my anger, until it’s gone
Show you and this world exactly how I feel: death in full color
It’s never been so real
It’s been me and you, it’s always been me and you

No matter what we faced, we always made it through
Get out of this dream, do what I gotta do
No one can take your place and I don’t want them to
If I could take your place, I would, I would take your pain
Just to see you smile and say my name,
Just to see you laugh and hear you cry
I don’t understand, I don’t know why

I’ve never been in this place before, life just don’t make sense
With you I could move mountains, right now I’m helpless
I guess, you always knew what was best
Believed in your God, till the very last breath
And you showed me just how strong you can be
If Jesus saved your life, could He do it for me?
I’ll lay down my life for you and for Him
Believe God’s promise, I’m gonna see you again

Lord here I am, but I am no one, believe in Your name
And in Your Son, if you meet me here I will wait on You
Sacrifice and serve, do what You want me to
I’ll take it day by day, and sit at Your feet
‘Cause You are strong when I am weak
And I seek to keep from going under
Until I hold you again, I’ll always wonder

(I wish I was with you.)

Oh God…

Why did my mommy have to die?
[repeats]

Death in full color

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Shines Through – Hopesfall

Lies
I’ve deceived myself in this hour of solitude
Through the breaking of love and spirit

These words spit from my mouth
Bitterness poured from deep within my heart
Only to stain and harden my skin
Erasing compassion

Ripping the joy from inside of me

Let me go
Trying to rid myself of this frame

Wash it from my eyes, all these sad goodbyes, make me feel again

Leave me here, to reconcile these unfinished plans
Love broke me

Trials are in vain
I press on not knowing what there is to gain

In all that I’ve failed
I have come to realize Your truth shines through pain


One of the lost songs from my high school days.

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Breathe Babylon – P.O.D.

[Chorus]
Babylon Breathe Babylon

I see you people babel on and on
Graven images, golden idols and false icons
I’m seeking wisdom like Solomon
But my antennae keeps on picking up evil transmissions
At headquarters I receive my mission
Blow up the ruler of the air like nuclear fission
So I analyze my weapons, laser guided rifles that shoot spiritual wisdom
I think I see enemy warriors,
Fragile heathens tryin’ to run stuff like mayors
So with brothas that snuff punks, 
We set up time bombs to destroy the strong holds of Babylon

Babylon Breathe Babylon
[8x]

We be the tribes under grace, a righteous minority
Decadent culture make you forget your spiritual priority
Back down by the movement, soldiers who will serve ya
Open to be used by God, destroy you like Medo-Persia
Jewel of all kingdoms, live evil, purified Hurrah take you down
Don’t look back, overthrown you like Sodom and Gomorrah arm of the law
Guilty of all crimes I be like the great Prophet Isaiah
Predict your fall over 150 times, got rhymes you could never use
For the purpose you be using, I’ll dance over your fields
Present day Iraq still lies in ruins lies,
Schemes, backstab persuasions bumrushed
Get crushed by us, this rescue invasion

[Chorus 8x]

Look to the sky, heed the warning
The shadow is coming, the shadow is coming
[8x]

The plagues are coming, the plagues are coming
I feel the breath of the Death Beast
[4x]

Misled bureaucracy, full of hypocrisy
I gotta steel pulse, looking for a true democracy
Destruction, now your walls have fallen
Just sitting here waiting for the train to Zion

Sit down in the dust, Babylon without a throne to call your own is 47:1
The city has fallen, she has fallen golden images of her god
Lie shattered on the ground

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